In April of 2018, my husband and I received the news we’d been so anxiously anticipating – we were going to be parents. However, just a few weeks later, we learned that the pregnancy had not progressed as we’d hoped. The next couple of months were some of the darkest of our lives as we dealt with the reality that we would not be bringing a baby home the following January.
While there were many moments when I was overcome by the emotions of grief, there were just as many when I was overcome with something else – the hope of Christ. I remember one Sunday morning as I led worship in LifeLight, we sang Lauren Daigle’s Trust in You.
When You don’t move the mountains. I’m needing You to move. When You don’t part the waters. I wish I could walk through. When You don’t give the answers. As I cry out to You. I will trust, I will trust. I will trust in You.
As I looked out into the congregation, I realized that only a couple of the people looking back at me knew what I was facing at that time, though they all seemed to need the message of this song just as much as I did. I knew that many of them also faced quiet struggles that I would never know the full extent of. But here we were, all of us together, boldly affirming what we knew to be true – that we can always trust God to be our Light in the darkness.
This Advent season will be different than any of the ones that have come before it. However, all that we know to be true about this season is still the same. Jesus came into the world to be our Light. When the world around us seems dark, when we don’t have the answers we’re looking for, when there seems to be no way out from our pain, the hope of Christ is there. He sees us in our times of struggle and doubt, and as we know from Psalm 34, He is near to the brokenhearted. My prayer for all of us this Christmas is that we might have the gift of more fully knowing this truth each day.
Morgan Jones, Hospitality Coordinator
